I enjoy us.

I enjoy us.

I am surprised by how much sex I have had in my life that I didn’t want to have. Not exactly what’s considered “real” rape, or “date” rape, although it is a kind of rape of the spirit - a dishonest portrayal or distortion of my own desire in order to appease another person.

I said yes because I felt it was too much trouble to say no. I said yes because I didn’t want to have to defend my “no,” qualify it, justify it - deserve it. I said yes because I thought I was so ugly and fat that I should just take sex every time it was offered, because who knew when it would be offered again. I said yes to partners I never wanted in the first place, because to say no at any point after saying yes for so long would make our entire relationship a lie, so I had to keep saying yes in order to keep the “no” I felt a secret. That is such a messed-up way to live, such an awful way to love.

So these days, I say yes only when I mean yes. It does require some vigilance on my part to make sure I don’t just go on sexual automatic pilot and let people do whatever. It forces me to be really honest with myself and others. It makes me remember that loving myself is also about protecting myself and defending my own borders. I say yes to me.

Margaret Cho, “Yes Means Yes” (via makojaeger)

(Source: scenicroutes)



goodness I want to make this

Update:

So in the past month I was promoted to a position I have been dying to have. Then two weeks later I was offered a full time position with the company. I have been dying to be full time for well over 2 years so it’s about time. I did have to withdraw my applications for other jobs within the company since I accepted a position which kind of sucked. I want to explore the company outside of my branch. 

Me and my boyfriend are still doing wonderful and I can’t wait to see how we progress more. 





After working for the same place since high school and after three years I finally received a promotion. I have been working my butt off and trying so hard. Yeah the raises have been nice but to finally have an actual promotion/raise is so amazing. I have been needing this push for so long. Today was awesome. Yay yay yay. Sooo long Teller and hello Service Representative role!



octoslice:

Artist: Menton J. Matthews III



daftlypunk:

daftlypunk:

do not flirt with women when they are at work

do not take advantage of women who are in situations where they cannot say no or be blunt

#im a barista not your goddamn girlfriend take your coffee and leave

this kills me and is my number one problem with my job. I sometimes have to email my male coworkers to come stand by me because guys just won’t stop when I’m alone. the worst is when they’re married and the wife likely has no idea. all I ask for is respect.

(Source: yovahkiin)





I ran my first official 5K today!!!





I actually might get into a relationship soon. I mean we have talked every single day for over a year so it would make sense. I just hope all will work if I do decide to take the chance.