My interview is at four pm tomorrow….
I honestly don’t know how much I want it anymore. If I got it then it would be so cool and such a massive jump. (Two positions above my current.) If I didn’t I would be okay with that too. Since applying so many things have occurred and made me realize so much more. My current manager will be actually meeting my interviewer on Wednesday morning so he will be able to get a feel for how it went.
You just like the idea of me. You like the person I present myself under circumstances that I can control. I choose what I say and how I say things. It’s like being attracted to a fictional character in a book. They are scripted and made up. If you think about it, through writings, we all script and make ourselves up. I don’t share the person I become when I am upset. I don’t show you how I look like when I sleep. I don’t tell you about all the times I’ve made someone cry. All the guilty things I’ve done and the bad thoughts I’ve had.
Han (via skeletales)